Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Two Things
1. Nat and I are going to do the vegetarian thing for a month. Anyone have any good vegetarian (not necessarily vegan) websites/recipes?
2. I need a good place to do community service. My heart is not really into the humane society or nursing homes. It's likely that I couldn't commit to more than an hour or two every couple of weeks...or three to four a month at on a Saturday...any suggestions?
2. I need a good place to do community service. My heart is not really into the humane society or nursing homes. It's likely that I couldn't commit to more than an hour or two every couple of weeks...or three to four a month at on a Saturday...any suggestions?
Monday, July 11, 2005
A New Outlook...
I found an old journal tonight...from my freshman year in college. With it was a devotional that Nat gave me after we started dating. The devotional is significant because it changed the course of my life, forever.
It's amazing to see how my priorities have completely changed. Five years ago I was completely self-centered. I was focused on getting through school and starting my career. I wanted to be successful...everyone else in my life (ie a husband and kids) were going to have to wait until they could fit into my schedule and mold--without making waves. I was driven, but for all of the wrong reasons. Looking back I don't know that I can say that my priorities changed during college, but I can say that they changed because of college.
The changes have really occurred during the past year. While I am still selfish (aren't we all at this age?) I no longer want the same things in life. I made it through college and started my career, but my dreams of climbing the corporate ladder have been replaced by the desire to play Chutes and Ladders. The perfect mold was shattered about 3 months before graduation when I gave up my dream job for my husband to be. I am still driven, but for different goals. My focus now is on getting my life in order so that I can be a better wife and eventually a mother.
My priorities have morphed into OUR priorities. This does not mean that I am looking to have children anytime soon. See the above statement that I am still very selfish. What it does mean is that four years ago God set some amazing things in motion in my life and I finally feel like I understand what it means to be "the woman that God desires me to be..."
It's amazing to see how my priorities have completely changed. Five years ago I was completely self-centered. I was focused on getting through school and starting my career. I wanted to be successful...everyone else in my life (ie a husband and kids) were going to have to wait until they could fit into my schedule and mold--without making waves. I was driven, but for all of the wrong reasons. Looking back I don't know that I can say that my priorities changed during college, but I can say that they changed because of college.
The changes have really occurred during the past year. While I am still selfish (aren't we all at this age?) I no longer want the same things in life. I made it through college and started my career, but my dreams of climbing the corporate ladder have been replaced by the desire to play Chutes and Ladders. The perfect mold was shattered about 3 months before graduation when I gave up my dream job for my husband to be. I am still driven, but for different goals. My focus now is on getting my life in order so that I can be a better wife and eventually a mother.
My priorities have morphed into OUR priorities. This does not mean that I am looking to have children anytime soon. See the above statement that I am still very selfish. What it does mean is that four years ago God set some amazing things in motion in my life and I finally feel like I understand what it means to be "the woman that God desires me to be..."
