Monday, February 18, 2002
Well, here goes nothing...
I just got out of my first final. One down, three more to go...it's gonna be a long week. The final really wasn't too bad though...ok, so it was incredibly easy, but that's really not the point to my story.
Finals this quarter are really really scary. Yes, I know all about them just being a test, blah, blah, blah, but it's different this quarter. I am failing a class right now. Yes, that's right, Nichole is failing a class. Basically to pass the class I have to get a C or better on the final...Ideally that wouldn't be too hard, but about 30% of it is all or nothing...yes, ladies and gentlemen I am screwed.
So, I started thinking about how much college completely takes over your life last week, and it is truly unreal. Yes, I love school and all that stuff, but it's not because my life is consumed by classes, projects, tests, and homework. It's because of the people that are here. Unfortunately, I think that relationships are hindered by the fact that we all stay so busy all the time. Only the super-resilant relationships survive. In thinking of that it made me realize why you stay in such closer contact with your college friends than you do with other friends later on in life. Yes, there are a select few people from high school that you stay in touch with, but for the most part the relationships you had weren't strong enough to survive the stresses of the real world. That's not to say I don't value each and every friendship I have ever had, but it's the people that I still talk to now that make me realize how lucky I really am. In many ways you all are a link to the past. The people who knew me before I came to Rose, and the people who have been good enough friends to love me even with all of my faults. In coming to college I have learned who it is that I will want to see at my wedding, the people I will call when my first child is born, and the people I will lean on when things don't go as they should. I guess in a lot of ways I have learned the meaning of friendship...it just took me 20 years to do...My friends at Rose have seen me through so much in the past year and a half. Numerous guy problems, relationships beginning, relationships ending, passing a really hard test, failing a really hard test, being so happy that I am bouncing off the walls, and being so upset that I am curled up on the couch crying. You all have been there for it all...Thank you. Living with my sisters and friends has made us closer than I ever thought possible. I guess that's why I forget sometimes that I have only known you all for a limited time. You all are the best and I love each and every one of you!!!
To those of you who may read this whom I have lost contact with (yes, I know some of you check my away message even though you never talk to me) it's never too late. Somewhere between me leaving for school a year and a half ago and now I have lost some of the best friends I ever had. I never expected our friendships to be the same...it was time for us all to move on and adapt, but I spent four years or more with all of you and I miss catching up with you. Just a little something to think about...
Hmm...I guess that's it from me. I'm not completely sure if that was me whining or what. I guess the lack of sleep and social life for the last couple weeks has made me think a lot about stuff. Anywho...I'm done procrastinating, so I'm off to study for DE now...wish me luck!!!
I just got out of my first final. One down, three more to go...it's gonna be a long week. The final really wasn't too bad though...ok, so it was incredibly easy, but that's really not the point to my story.
Finals this quarter are really really scary. Yes, I know all about them just being a test, blah, blah, blah, but it's different this quarter. I am failing a class right now. Yes, that's right, Nichole is failing a class. Basically to pass the class I have to get a C or better on the final...Ideally that wouldn't be too hard, but about 30% of it is all or nothing...yes, ladies and gentlemen I am screwed.
So, I started thinking about how much college completely takes over your life last week, and it is truly unreal. Yes, I love school and all that stuff, but it's not because my life is consumed by classes, projects, tests, and homework. It's because of the people that are here. Unfortunately, I think that relationships are hindered by the fact that we all stay so busy all the time. Only the super-resilant relationships survive. In thinking of that it made me realize why you stay in such closer contact with your college friends than you do with other friends later on in life. Yes, there are a select few people from high school that you stay in touch with, but for the most part the relationships you had weren't strong enough to survive the stresses of the real world. That's not to say I don't value each and every friendship I have ever had, but it's the people that I still talk to now that make me realize how lucky I really am. In many ways you all are a link to the past. The people who knew me before I came to Rose, and the people who have been good enough friends to love me even with all of my faults. In coming to college I have learned who it is that I will want to see at my wedding, the people I will call when my first child is born, and the people I will lean on when things don't go as they should. I guess in a lot of ways I have learned the meaning of friendship...it just took me 20 years to do...My friends at Rose have seen me through so much in the past year and a half. Numerous guy problems, relationships beginning, relationships ending, passing a really hard test, failing a really hard test, being so happy that I am bouncing off the walls, and being so upset that I am curled up on the couch crying. You all have been there for it all...Thank you. Living with my sisters and friends has made us closer than I ever thought possible. I guess that's why I forget sometimes that I have only known you all for a limited time. You all are the best and I love each and every one of you!!!
To those of you who may read this whom I have lost contact with (yes, I know some of you check my away message even though you never talk to me) it's never too late. Somewhere between me leaving for school a year and a half ago and now I have lost some of the best friends I ever had. I never expected our friendships to be the same...it was time for us all to move on and adapt, but I spent four years or more with all of you and I miss catching up with you. Just a little something to think about...
Hmm...I guess that's it from me. I'm not completely sure if that was me whining or what. I guess the lack of sleep and social life for the last couple weeks has made me think a lot about stuff. Anywho...I'm done procrastinating, so I'm off to study for DE now...wish me luck!!!
