Thursday, July 31, 2003
Welcome to the emotional roller coaster that is Nichole's life. I talked to my mom today and apparently she bought a condo. Not only did she buy this condo, but she is looking to move out of our house by the end of the month. Then, just in case that wasn't shock enough my dad is also looking for a place to move and as soon as he finds one they will be selling the house. Ready for the real kicker? I no longer have a room. I was pretty ok when my mom told me today. I guess I just assummed one of them would stay in the house...apparently that's what happens when you assume. My dad is planning to move to Georgetown (about 30-45 mins from Lexington) to be closer to his job. Makes sense I guess...but none of it changes the fact that I am losing my home.
For the next year I am homeless. Literally. I have my apartment at school, but when I come home I have no where to go. Mom's condo has 2 bedrooms...one for her and one for Patrick. Dad doesn't have a place yet, but I'm assumming it will be a similar situation there. I guess I always kind of thought that I would get to spend this last year in my house, in my room, with my things. I also thought that I would get to spend the night there before my wedding...I guess I'm sentimental. Now I have to go home, go through my things, and pack my stuff to move I don't know where.
There are things in this world that I will never understand. Why people get attached to houses is one of them. It is just a house, but it has been my home for the last 15 years. The vast majority of my life was spent in the little room at the end of the hallway. I started thinking today about all of the memories that I have in my house. I seriously can't believe that it's going to be gone.
Nat told me tonight that I have a home with him, but I really don't. Not yet anyway. So I guess for the time being I will just be homeless.
You know, earlier today I was talking about how excited I was to go home. How much I was looking forward to seeing my parents and just being home. Now, I am dreading it. I think a large part of the reason that I am upset is that my parents moving out makes the divorce real. Up until today I had held onto some small glimmer of hope that somehow they would decide to stay together. That they would work out their problems. Or maybe just that I would wake up and find myself in a huge nightmare. Unfortunately, I now know that that is not the case. My parents are going to get divorced. They are going to sell my house, and I am going to have to deal with it at some point.
This whole divorce just makes me mad. Mostly because of how my parents are handling it. Everything is being kept so secretive. For example, my mom has been looking for a place to live since she told me they were getting a divorce...why she couldn't have told me then or any other time in the past two months is completely beyond me. I am young, but I am not a child. I would hardly consider 21 an age where you have to protect me anymore. But I guess that's how my parents see it.
Ok, well I thought that getting some feelings out might make me feel better, but apparently it didn't. I am so confused right now, and pretty much just emotionally drained. I feel like I am on a giant rollercoaster with no way off. I just want this all to be over...I guess I should head to bed and try to get some sleep.
Until next time...
~N
For the next year I am homeless. Literally. I have my apartment at school, but when I come home I have no where to go. Mom's condo has 2 bedrooms...one for her and one for Patrick. Dad doesn't have a place yet, but I'm assumming it will be a similar situation there. I guess I always kind of thought that I would get to spend this last year in my house, in my room, with my things. I also thought that I would get to spend the night there before my wedding...I guess I'm sentimental. Now I have to go home, go through my things, and pack my stuff to move I don't know where.
There are things in this world that I will never understand. Why people get attached to houses is one of them. It is just a house, but it has been my home for the last 15 years. The vast majority of my life was spent in the little room at the end of the hallway. I started thinking today about all of the memories that I have in my house. I seriously can't believe that it's going to be gone.
Nat told me tonight that I have a home with him, but I really don't. Not yet anyway. So I guess for the time being I will just be homeless.
You know, earlier today I was talking about how excited I was to go home. How much I was looking forward to seeing my parents and just being home. Now, I am dreading it. I think a large part of the reason that I am upset is that my parents moving out makes the divorce real. Up until today I had held onto some small glimmer of hope that somehow they would decide to stay together. That they would work out their problems. Or maybe just that I would wake up and find myself in a huge nightmare. Unfortunately, I now know that that is not the case. My parents are going to get divorced. They are going to sell my house, and I am going to have to deal with it at some point.
This whole divorce just makes me mad. Mostly because of how my parents are handling it. Everything is being kept so secretive. For example, my mom has been looking for a place to live since she told me they were getting a divorce...why she couldn't have told me then or any other time in the past two months is completely beyond me. I am young, but I am not a child. I would hardly consider 21 an age where you have to protect me anymore. But I guess that's how my parents see it.
Ok, well I thought that getting some feelings out might make me feel better, but apparently it didn't. I am so confused right now, and pretty much just emotionally drained. I feel like I am on a giant rollercoaster with no way off. I just want this all to be over...I guess I should head to bed and try to get some sleep.
Until next time...
~N
Sunday, July 27, 2003
I just had a most wonderful weekend with my Natty! You may find yourself asking just what it was that made my weekend so enjoyable, and to be perfectly honest I just don't know. We did some shopping, went out to eat, cooked a little with my ghetto cooking supplies, and saw a couple of movies. Movie #1 was The Life of David Gale. While it received awful reviews when it came out, I rather liked it. In true Nat fashion, he had most of the movie figured out before it was finished, but that's alright...that's just Nat. Movie #2 was Bad Boys II. I've had a trend this summer of seeing the sequels to movies before I see the original. So far I've seen X-Men II, Terminator III, Rush Hour 2, and now Bad Boys II all before ever seeing the first. Oh well. Bad Boys was also enjoyable...as long as you weren't looking for any kind of a deep plot. :-)
Shopping with Nat was the best! I needed a new suit for my interview tomorrow. I actually bought the very first suit that I tried on! I bought pants, a skirt, and a jacket, all of which were on sale...big time! It gives me some options for this year with all of my interviews. I also bought a new shirt to go underneath. Then it was on to shoes. Shoes presented somewhat of a problem. I needed something that would look nice and professional with a pair of pants, that also had a back and a closed toe, and not too much of a heel. Basically, I needed something that would look nice, but still be appropriate for a plant tour. It was tougher than you may think. Nat finally came through with the perfect pair...on clearance!!! I was so excited! I also bought a pair of brown bowling shoes. Also very cute!
So, now it looks like I am all set for my interview. I don't get nervous, so that's not really an issue. It's somewhat of a different situation in that I work for CAT, so I didn't really feel the need to do the bone up on the company thing. The interview is all situational, so all I am really worried about is not drawing a blank when they pose the question "Tell me about a time when..." Oh well...we'll see what happens. I'm not stressing about it...I know that everything will work out how it is supposed to. Plus, I will look fabulous no matter what happens! Thanks Natty!!! :-)
Well, I'm sure I've bored everyone to tears by now. I'm gonna head off to bed since tomorrow is an early morning. Take care!
~N
Shopping with Nat was the best! I needed a new suit for my interview tomorrow. I actually bought the very first suit that I tried on! I bought pants, a skirt, and a jacket, all of which were on sale...big time! It gives me some options for this year with all of my interviews. I also bought a new shirt to go underneath. Then it was on to shoes. Shoes presented somewhat of a problem. I needed something that would look nice and professional with a pair of pants, that also had a back and a closed toe, and not too much of a heel. Basically, I needed something that would look nice, but still be appropriate for a plant tour. It was tougher than you may think. Nat finally came through with the perfect pair...on clearance!!! I was so excited! I also bought a pair of brown bowling shoes. Also very cute!
So, now it looks like I am all set for my interview. I don't get nervous, so that's not really an issue. It's somewhat of a different situation in that I work for CAT, so I didn't really feel the need to do the bone up on the company thing. The interview is all situational, so all I am really worried about is not drawing a blank when they pose the question "Tell me about a time when..." Oh well...we'll see what happens. I'm not stressing about it...I know that everything will work out how it is supposed to. Plus, I will look fabulous no matter what happens! Thanks Natty!!! :-)
Well, I'm sure I've bored everyone to tears by now. I'm gonna head off to bed since tomorrow is an early morning. Take care!
~N
